2011 musings
Another 12 months went by crazy fast and here I am on New Years Eve 2012. 2011 has been a spectacular year; I achieved the biggest accomplishment of my life which was graduating from college last May. I feel like this one single event really overshadowed everything else, good or bad, so much so that I can’t really think of anything else that was particularly memorable. And I guess I don’t mind that at all…except for the fact that the latter end of the 2011 has been one of constant frustration regarding my job situation. I worked a summer job on campus that let me extend the college experience for three last months, then I was sitting at home for another month trying not to make myself go crazy with all the doubting and second guessing myself, finally got a great internship (that was paid!) at The Agenda Project, and now I’m back full circle — unemployed on NYE. So I guess the only thing I can really hope for in the New Year is some sort of validation of my self-worth via employment. I know it’s really stupid to measure your self-worth according to whether or not you’re making money (money is sweet though, that’s for sure). But for me it really isn’t even about making money or else I probably would’ve done the finance thing since undergrad to have had a guaranteed job in July 2011. It’s more of showing my parents and myself that the last 22 years haven’t been a waste, that spending all my time and energy on getting an education actually is worthwhile, and that I actually can be something awesome. And while I know I’ll be doing big things in the future, getting my foot in the door has proven to be really difficult. Convincing my fobby parents (mostly my mom) who think that maybe I’m just lazy and that everything should be easy for me in America to shut up and have some faith in me really is getting to be draining.
So here’s to the New Year…a job, moving forward, and less frustration. Oh, and to lose weight.
